off, again

whats off today..whats wrong with me
blahh i've just been so off today, soo different, so not me.
It's like i have no idea what I'm doing here, no idea what my purpose is, and it just leaves me feeling so empty, like I'm going in endless circles doing nothing, wastingmy life away, going around and around in circles again and again. i need inspiration, too bad no one's around to give it to me. This year especially has been hard on me. An overload of classes, an overload of sports, and watching my previous best friend leave me, right when I needed him, that hurts....

i worked so hard to achieve some things, and sometimes i wonder if my working so hard was the ultimate undoing of this..but it doesn't matter any longer...and all around me, i hear people saying they're busy with 'life'. what is life. life isnt school, it isn't academics, if you call that life, there's something strange going on with you, and no, its not me. I understand that people are busy, i just miss talking to someone, even though i rarely have time...but its the thought that counts.

everytime i take one step forward and i think i'm actually getting a grip, i get slammed with a brick on my face which forces me to stumble three steps back.



but on a lighter note, Congratulations to the Walnut Cross Country 2008-2009 Varisty Team!
State-CIF title, here we come.